Too many thoughts. Too many things I want to do. Too much sleep I’m not getting.
I don’t know if it’s been evident, but I have been busy doing things like shopping new suits, shoes, bags for my husband and son. It seems like there’s just too much going on. And I don’t have enough time for myself.
I just do things that could meet my husband’s needs, and try to make him happy. If he wants to eat hot spot, so do I. otherwise if he doesn’t want to order a steak, neither do I. I think a lot of people go through this, but it’s truly been hard for me. I’m a person who wants to be able to give everything to my husband and son. I get my greatest joy by making them happy. The best presents for me are actually in finding the best presents for them. I want everyone to be nicer to me.
Anyway, it’s been a little hard for me to find the balance lately. I feel like I’ve just been so absent. I have hopes, plans, and dreams, but I’ve really struggled with it lately. I want to be excited, but so many days, I’m just trying to be happy. I worked so hard to make everyone else happy – because in the end, that’s what makes me happy.
I know I can’t be the only one who struggles with this. I know I’m not alone. So now I’m asking you – where do you find the balance?